Ramblings

I attended the 2024 paper doll convention in Indianapolis. I confess that it was all a little bit of a blur, but I am going to try to recap it as best as I can in brief here. Julie has a nice write up, too.

It was such a great event! Sharry & Micheal O’Hara and Beth & Kevin Wilkins really knocked it out of the park. Truly, their hard work make it all possible. I’ve helped organize conventions before and I know how complicated the logistics are, so it really was a feat that they did it all and it ran so smoothly.

Preparing for the Convention & Flying out on Thursday

On Wednesday and Thursday, Brunhilde, the fancy printer I have, was hard at work printing off my paper doll prints on beautiful paper from Red River Paper. I used the Matte Polar paper and printed a mix of one page and two page sets. I didn’t print many copies, focusing instead on variety. I packed as light as possible, so just a carry on bag. It did mean that everyone saw me in the same outfits the entire time- I didn’t dress up for anything, but maybe I will next time.

All packed up, I headed to the airport to fly out at 2:30 am on Thursday morning. Because it’s a nearly a four hour flight to Seattle, I had to take a red-eye if I was going to make it to Indianapolis in one day. (Time zones are really annoying when flying to and from Alaska.)

My flights went smoothly, but my second flight got a bit delayed and so I didn’t get to the hotel until after 7:30pm. I slipped into the back of the opening reception to eat some tasty food (the food was good at the whole event) and listen to the end of Beth Wilken’s talk on 1920s history.

Friday

Julie’s workshop was Friday morning, I had a fun time gluing little pieces of paper together. (I do like playing with paper.) Then I slipped out of the event to run a quick errand (I’d forgotten contact lens solution and needed that to get through the next few days) and returned in time to see Brenda Mattox’s amazing talk on historical 1920s clothing using examples from her own collection. So very cool!

This was followed by a great talk from Kwei-lin Lum whose site- Flat Doll– was a big influence on me as I’ve moved through the paper doll world. One of the things she talked about was the idea of paper dolls as “an arrangement of parts” with the connections between those parts (the doll and her clothing) largely being suggested, rather than stated. This has always resonated with me. The idea that each piece of a paper doll is part of a story being told through suggestion rather than overt means. Her artist’s statement on Flat Doll is wonderful reading about paper dolls and art.

Saturday

Saturday was sales day, but I overslept and ended up panicked running downstairs to set up my table in just a few minutes. I got everything set up and tidy though. My one page sets sold the best (which surprised me). I also sold out of all the copies of my book that I brought.

On Saturday evening, I had dinner with several very folks from all around the country. I won the centerpiece, but I had no way to get it home without mangling it, so I passed it on to another lady who was there. Eileen Rudisill Miller was honored with a Fanny Gray Award for her contributions to the paper doll world. It was really a wonderful moment.

Highlights from the trip for me all about getting to meet and see people. I didn’t purchase much and I was sort of exhausted by the end of it, but it was also super fun and I am so happy I went.

Next time, I need to pace myself a little better. But I always say that after events like this, and I never seem to do it. Big thank you to everyone, especially the organizers- Sharry & Micheal O’Hara and Beth & Kevin Wilkins- who made it all possible.

This is not usually a hard post for me to write. I am a very goal oriented person. I like making goals. I like setting goals and working towards them. It brings me a lot of satisfaction. However, this year I’ve struggled a little with my goal setting.

Primary Goal

Develop a workflow for my paper doll creations that both maintains my momentum and is sustainable within the confines of my other hobbies and obligations.

However, this isn’t a goal that’s easy to measure or on that I really know how to start with, so here’s a few concrete goals I’m working towards-

1. Post to the Blog Weekly- Except when I take vacations

I really like having a simply goal regarding consistency and I think planning for a minimum of a one post a week works well for me. I particularly want to balance pre-scheduling posts and not losing the motivation that a regular schedule gives me.

2. Restart Monthly Newsletters

After a lot of debate, I’ve decided to keep the Newsletter (I almost killed it) and focus on it being a slightly longer monthly format. I want to bring back a newsletter paper doll and I think it will go out either the first or the last Friday of the month. If you haven’t signed up yet, you can do that here.

3. Exclusive Monthly Paper Dolls for my Patrons

My plan is to continue a having exclusive paper doll series for my patrons. In February, I’ll have a poll for my patrons to vote on what you’d like to see for this year. Also, there will be occasional exclusive WIP posts and polls and things. If you want to join, it will officially reopen on the 1st of February.

4. Create More Prints

One big development in my artistic life is that I ended up with an art printer, specifically an Epson 3800, which was destined for donation to a recycling center before my husband adopted it. We didn’t know if it would work and it took a bit of work on his part to make it work, but now it does work. We’ve named it Brunhilda. The prints Brunhilda creates are so beautiful. Really really beautiful- like professional art print beautiful.

I never in a million years would have paid to get one of these (because wowzer, these are not cheap), but now that I own one, it seems a pity not to use it. In fact, you have to use it at least once a month, or you can have issues with the nozzles clogging.

Stretch Goals

These are goals that I really don’t think I’ll successfully do, but I think dreaming big is important.

Complete a 100 Day Project

I keep telling myself that one day I will complete a 100 day project. I never have, but maybe someday I could? Or would? I think rather than focusing on doing something for 100 days, I think I want to focus on doing 100 of something over the course of the year. No idea what yet, mind you, but something.

I think I just love the idea of a paper doll with 100 outfits. So, that probably has something (everything) to do with it.

Sell Prints on Etsy

To be totally honest, I don’t know if I want to do this, but again- I have the printer to do it- I just don’t know if I’d like the extra work of trying to mail things to people or if that logistical challenge is one that I would end up absolutely hating. I’ve never done it, so it’s tough to say for sure.

Anyway, those are my goals for 2024. I don’t know where I’ll do with all of them, but I am going to see. I have to keep reminding myself that changing a goal isn’t failure.

This December has been a little tough. I got walking pneumonia, but am on the mend. I spent a lot of the month resting and recovering. However, as 2024 begins, I have had sometime to reflect and gather some stats. It dawned on me that I used to regularly share year-end posts, a practice I somehow drifted away from. But I missed crafting these reflections on the passing year, so here we are and I hope you find it interesting.

This is not my goals for 2024 post, because I haven’t got those sorted quite yet. Until then, I hope you find some facts, figures and reflections interesting.

Paper Thin Personas in 2023 in Numbers

Let’s start with some numbers… Paper Thin Personas (PTP) had about 60K unique visitors in 2023. I created 87 blog posts of which 62 were paper doll post. I published 28 newsletters. As you may recall, I had planned on transforming PTP into a newsletter in 2023 and that did not work.

So, I do plan to continue the newsletter, but I think I’ll migrate it to a monthly little paper doll update for everyone’s email inbox.

• The most popular new post of 2023 (because this post remains the post popular post of all time, by a wide margin), was my Citrus Summer Paper Doll. (No idea why, but there you go.)
• Other than Google, I get most of my visitors from Pinterest.
• The majority of my visitors are from the United States with Canada, the Philippines, and the United Kingdom as other common spots.
• My busiest month was November 2023 (no idea why) and my least busy month was April 2023 (again, no idea why)
• On average, visitors to the site stick around about 2.3 minutes and look at 3 different pages. Of course, this is a little messy of a stat, because of how Google counts people.

All in all, I am really very happy with how the blog is doing in the numbers game. Paper dolls are a niche hobby (to say the least) and I don’t expect they are suddenly going to become as popular as K-pop or something.

Achievements of 2023

My book came out! Paper Doll Review agreed to publish a project I’d been drawing for a while and they did just a really fantastic job. Julie Matthews colored the line-work I created so beautifully. Jenny Taliadoros held my hand through the whole thing.

Also, I went to a paper doll party! I’ve been talking about going for so long. I thought about going last year, but decided to get married instead. I met so many amazing people and it was the push I needed to really commit to moving to digital art.

Anyway, I don’t know how I could have topped either of those two events, but I did also want to share my favorite paper dolls that I posted onto PTP in 2023, each one for a different reason.

The three posts I am super proud of are the first night of Hanukkah set, Stardust Styles, and my 1894 suit.

My Favorite Paper Dolls of 2023

My 1894 suit is a favorite, because it was the first set that I drew where I feel like I really embraced the possibilities of digital art. I learned so much during its creation process and I used so many tools. It felt like a moment where my art shifted in some real way.

Stardust Styles is a favorite, because it surprised me. Sometimes I come up with ideas and then I don’t really like how they end up. Stardust Styles was the opposite. I came up with the idea and I wasn’t sure about it. However, once I drew it and colored it, it came together so much better than I hoped it would.

The first night of Hanukkah set was a favorite, because it came out exactly as I imagined it. Sometimes art is easy (not often for me!) and this was one of those times. It feels timeless. I can imagine my nephew or niece giving this set to their kids. That makes me happy.

Do you have a favorite from 2023? Let me know in a comment and have an amazing start to 2024. I’m taking a little blog break until the 22nd (one of my goals for 2024 is to try not to just disappear for weeks at a time… we’ll see how that goes) while I deal with some behind the scenes stuff and I plan to return on the 22nd.

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about satisfaction and joy. Or, more precisely, the difference between satisfaction and joy.

Every few months, I clean out my fridge. I wait for a day when there’s not a lot of groceries in it and then I set to work- taking out everything, washing the veggie drawers in bleach and water, removing the shelves, scrubbing the bins inside the door. I toss anything expired or moldy. It feels good.

This is satisfaction. The sense of accomplishment that comes from completing a task.

But it is not the same as joy. It is not as though I love the process of cleaning out the fridge. Instead, I love the outcome. Joy is not something I seek from cleaning a fridge. Joy is, however, what I want to feel when I do creative work.

Satisfaction feels good. It’s a good feeling and I get it all the time on the blog. Every time I post something new, I feel a little jolt of satisfaction. I think it’s really easy to mistake satisfaction for joy.

I’d been feeling very stagnant about the blog. Stagnant about my art. And generally frustrated. I liked how I felt when I finished something (satisfaction!), but I hadn’t lately been wanting to start anything new or finish much of anything I’ve started. The number of semi-penciled things in my sketchbooks is a testament to that. I kept telling myself I would feel joy if I just “did the work”, but somehow doing the work wasn’t fun and certainly not joyful.

But because satisfaction feels close enough to joy to pass for it in sufficiently dim-light, I sort of fed on that and kept telling myself that it was enough.

But, after the paper doll party, a few long talks with other artists, and a bit of self reflection (and some whiny draft posts that would make an angst-filled 13 year-old Rachel wince), I’ve decided I need to see how I would feel if there was no pressure on me to create anything. Like what if I was back where I was when this whole blog started (metaphorically speaking, I have no desire to be 23 again) and just did art because I felt like doing it.

And gave myself space to play. That was what Procreate has given me this last six weeks I’ve been learning the program- space to play.

It had been so long that I’d forgotten how it felt to just enjoy making things. Joy instead of satisfaction.

So, that’s my new goal. Just make stuff I feel like making for a little while. Experience some creative joy.

I’m sure in a few a weeks, months, something I’ll need to move again towards satisfaction. I need both, but right now, I’m going to be hanging out in playful land.

And that means, things might be a little erratic and strange around here while I sort out how/what I feel like exploring next.

As always, I’m happy for anyone who wants to hang out along the way. Leave a comment if you see something you like. And later this week, I’ll be sharing a new paper doll that was another experiment- this one with color and texture.